What is Real?

As a photographer of sorts, mainly of landscapes, I am asked often "How did you take this picture?" It seems that many times what they are really asking is, "Is this real?" So when I was working on photos from a trip I took last year, I got to thinking about this question and it led me to write this.

When I look at this photo taken on Maui, I wonder - Is this real? Was the sky that color? Was the tree that perfect? Did I use some trickery - or in photographer language - did I "work" this image in some way? The answers to these questions are: yes; mostly; yes; and to the last question, sort of. But it really is all in your perception of an image, I suppose. This is what I "saw" when I came out the door one early, early morning in Maui. It was raining over the mountains in the distance and the sky was on fire with colors reflecting off the low clouds as the sun was coming up. The sky over me was that beautiful sunrise blue. I had to lay down on a chaise lounge to get the angle I wanted with the blue meeting the tree in just the top third - rule of thirds, remember? - and the other colors just swirled into place. Now, I don't recall the purple being so vibrant but it is what it is.

So to answer the question that is asked so often these days about photography: Is it real? It is as real as my mind's eye saw that day and as unreal as digital photography allows us to make it...hmmmmm.

Coffee

I read the most perfect poem today - it was about two wonderful things: Coffee and Nostalgia. I read it once and then again and again. It touched a chord in me for some reason. I am not sure why except that I love coffee as anyone who knows me will testify. I drink it morning, noon and night without regard to what effect the caffeine might have on my ability to concentrate or to sleep.

What is it that I find so wonderful about this simple black liquid? I love the feel of a sturdy mug in my hand in the morning and in the evening it is even better to have a beautiful china cup that I can hold delicately by the handle...ahhhh. I love the taste of it, mixed with cream - the color is so important - I love the smell as it drifts up from the cup and into my waiting nostrils...pungent and full-bodied. The scent conjures up memories of other cups of coffee in my life - my first cup of coffee, sweetened to a syrupy consistency and consumed at the diningroom table with my dad; the cups I drank with a friend at Denney's when I was just a teenager, bitter and stale; my first "coffee house" cup, smooth and delicious years ago, long before Starbucks appeared; the first cup of coffee after too much alcohol the night before, "Oh coffee, help get rid of this headache, please." There are coffee memories of snow storms and beach sunsets, early mornings out in the wilderness and even of my husband's famous "camp" coffee. There are coffee memories of people past and present too. What a perfect drink. What perfect memories.

So as I said before, this is a poem about coffee and nostalgia - or is it?

I hope you enjoy it as much as I did.

She Knows

her hands

cool silk

cupping his warmest thoughts

in their deepest recesses.

gone now

by decades,

but those cool hands

part time

sink inside

the folds of his mind.

a silver spoon

stirring the moon

into his coffee,

lifting velvet kisses

to his lips.

she knows

he thinks of her

even now.

wraps her

cool silk hands

around a

warm china cup,

purses velvet lips

gently blows

steam from her coffee.

she smiles as

vaporous lovers

swirl and dance.

she knows

and drinks him in.

by Karen Suriano

Artistic Grief

Sometimes we are just too hard on ourselves. Did you know that? I have a problem with never quite measuring up to that fictional image of perfection - you know, the one that someone painted for you as a kid or even as an adult, I suppose. I find myself being particularly critical of my artistic abilities. I have tried to let go of this many times over the years only to have that evil image raise it's head when I least need to be reminded that I am, indeed, not perfect. But then again, many times it has told me that I suck when I actually don't...

So, tonight I was combing through image files from the last six years looking for a few pictures that might be worthy of a photo competition I am interested in entering. As I was looking and scanning, opening and closing, and clucking and sighing, I happened to open some files from a concert I attended in 2008. There amid the normal concert stuff - rock stars grinning and posing, drummers drumming wildly and women swooning - there was this one image. I don't remember seeing it when I went through my photos at the time and yet it is a really good image that conveys the moment it was taken perfectly. The singer leaning way back with his hand to his head, pure emotion in his voice and body, a red spotlight shining right through him. I didn't print this one and it is not to be found in any album. I never shared it with anyone. It has just been languishing on my hard-drive for almost 3 years, unlooked at and unappreciated. I remember thinking when I originally reviewed these images that I had really not done a very good job ("as usual" said that little voice in the back of my head). I just filed the images away in case I could use them at some future date. It is something that we all do - file it and forget it, right? Not good enough. Not bright enough. Not talented enough. Not pretty enough. I guess we see what we expect to see. I was looking for perfection in my work. I didn't find it so the images were not good enough. So is this image perfect? Nope. Is it a really good image? Yep. I really need to cut myself some slack! What about you?

Happy New Year.

New Eyes

Christmas Eve and all is quiet. Too quiet, if you ask me. With all my children grown and gone there are no kids, no wrapping paper scattered around, no dirty dishes in the sink, no voices downstairs playing video games and no traditional sticky spaghetti for dinner. Life is an ever changing canvas, isn't it?

The other day I was shooting portraits of my granddaughter - she's a bouncing, laughing, always in motion little girl of 26 months. Smart as a whip and a lot of fun to try to lasso down for some photos. I found myself fuming as I snapped frame after frame of her, trying to catch her at rest - to freeze her in that moment. I finally said in a stern voice, "Look at me WITH YOUR EYES, Alex." This is what I got. Okay, not what I thought I asked for but you have admit pretty darn funny. It wasn't until tonight that I realized how much her reaction to my request is how I should look at the changes in my family and life.

So what if the holidays and life in general are different now? It is how you perceive it that makes it okay or not okay. Alex heard me say something about looking at her eyes, so she pointed to them! I say I want my holidays to be loud, full of my kids and family with messy paper and ribbon all around. Well, its probably never going to be that way again so I should listen to what I really mean. I want the feeling that goes with all those things. I want to hear their voices and know they are happy and safe. That is do-able no matter where in the world they are on a particular day. I just have to remember to smile and pick up the phone or turn on the web cam. And, oh yeah, I can always make sticky spaghetti - it's my specialty...Merry Christmas!

Fire Monster

What is it about fire that fascinates human beings? Is it the heat, the color, the power that emanates from it? The pulsating of the flames, the sound of the cracking destruction that it causes? I watched in awe as our solstice bonfire kept us, the entire lot of us, at bay around the flaming monster that was created when twigs and branches were thrown onto the almost living, breathing entity. A few of us were baiting it - loading it with fuel and then raking it down into a glowing circle only to reload it with crackling and sparking wood, watching it grow powerful and bright again.

As I stood just outside the glowing circle of light, I realized that there was a predictable cycle of flame and fire, sparks and embers. When the fuel was tossed on, the fire would first go down and then sparks would fly into the black of the night sky just before the roar of a renewed flame would fill the air and smoke would come next, sometimes a lazy white curtain, sometimes a black dense fog. Then it would settle into flames that were low and in same ways softly comforting only to eventually need to have more fuel loaded onto it to get the embers back to flame. And the cycle would start all over...Why are we so fascinated by fire? I think it is because in a lot of ways it is like our lives: Light the fire, feed the flames, tease back to life and rake out the coals. Predictable? Yes. Boring? Never.

Inspiration Hits When Least Expected

Inspiration - where does it come from? That's what I am thinking about tonight. Sometimes it hits you at the oddest times - a phrase, a ray of light or even another person can trigger it. Anyway, I was already thinking about this earlier today after someone mentioned that they had been inspired to do something by the grey, rainy weather. Seemed odd to me but, heck, who am I to decide what inspires someone? So, I brought these thoughts home with me as I drove through the foggy downpour and suddenly I felt inspired myself. I became all wrapped up in the idea of photographing our Christmas lights in the rain. Not a truly wise activity if you value your camera equipment but that didn't seem important at that moment. I was intrigued with the thought of encasing my gear in plastic and putting myself in my waterproof shoes and just going for it! So when I arrived home, I dragged everything out into the waning light of the winter afternoon, rain pouring down from the heavens - my camera wearing it's lovely shower cap cover and I took photos of those darn lights from every angle. Hmmm. Nothing I had photographed was turning me on and discouraged, I found myself getting ready to quit. Then out of the blue "IT" happened - I forgot to remove the plastic shower cap from in front of my lens before snapping the shutter one last time. What appeared on the back of my camera was an abstract image that was exactly as I was seeing the image in my mind's eye! I was excited again! So, off I went to re-take all the images I had already done - happily dripping wet and cold but my soul singing - INSPIRATION! It sometimes comes from accidents of life and an open mind....ah, inspiration!

The Cantaloupe Moon

Photo by Catch-22 @deviantart.com

A friend shared this photo of the moon that he had taken on a particularly clear Oklahoma evening recently. After my initial "ohh, ahh" reaction to the crystal clear image and the beautiful indigo sky, I got to thinking - as I often do - of how much the moon looks like a cantaloupe. Seriously. Look at the shape, the texture, the lumps, bumps and even the uneven color of the surface. What is particularly striking about the moon in this image, is that there is a definite spot on the lower left side of the lunar surface that looks exactly like where the fruit would be attached to the vine if it were indeed a melon. I have heard people say that the moon is made of green cheese and I have heard of a blue moon but why has no one ever commented on how much like that wonderful fruit, the cantaloupe, the moon actually resembles? Hmm. Something to ponder on a cold November night...Garden of Eden, anyone?

Pink Light

Why is it that light changes so fast? It is a frustrating thing as a photographer and even just as an observer of all things natural - Right about the time you notice the color or texture of the light, it changes. Tonight the clouds were clearing after 4 days of freak early November snow and the mountains in the distance had this pink glow. Bright pink in some places, soft pastel in others, the snow covered mountains not white as one would expect. I have never seen anything like it. The clouds that hugged the tops of the peaks were a bit on the orange side with shades of pink in the undertones. The sky surrounding the clouds was a blue-gray, almost the color of metal. I reached for my camera and realized, of course, that it wasn't in my purse like yesterday. So I madly tried to feel for my iPhone on the seat next to me, all the while looking for the "best" vantage point to take a photo to memorialize this awesome moment in time. I pulled off the freeway and as I raised the phone to snap the image, the light was gone. Poof. Gone. All I have left of that little bit of heaven is the image in my head. I guess that isn't so bad.

Random thoughts for today - Day 1

So as I was driving along the highway today on my way to Yellowstone National Park, all alone in the car with just Chris Daughtry and the boys singing away, I started to wonder what it would be like to just jot down my random thoughts...never done that before. Sure I used to do a "journal" knowing full well that I would write it and someone would sneak in and take a peak so I never really said what I wanted to...Now this is different because I am as anonymous as I want to be and if I gave you the link to this than I obviously don't care if you know what I am actually thinking. Enough of that.

Do you know what annoys me? I am not a really picky person but in the last 24 hours I have found myself fuming inside about a couple of things. First, Marco Polo. Who the hell invited that game? Were they idiots? Did they not realize that some people would want to kill the children (or adults, for that matter) who are yelling that insanely annoying "Marco" "Polo" refrain? And top that off with if the game is taking place in a pool that is inside a building and bamm, I am talking machine gun or bazooka to the little darlings. The second thing and this is really picky. If you have a camera and you are sensitive, do not read on. If you take photos with a camera that has auto focus and you are sensitive, do not read on. If you are technically challenged and don't want to be enlightened, do not read on. OK, enough warnings. TURN OFF YOUR DAMN FOCUS INDICATOR BEEP! Most normal people can tell when their camera has finished focusing by simply looking through the lens or here's a little tip, when the camera is focused, the lens is still. OK? Understand? You don't need to hear a sound or two or three or four or to eternity before you click the shutter and take the photo! I swear today in Yellowstone, every Tom, Dick and Harry (or the female versions of those names) had fancy, I mean fancy, digital cameras and yet they were using Program mode or worse and letting the damn things beep to kingdom come to the utter disgust of those of us trying to enjoy the wonderful day and the sounds of the Geyser Valley in peace. There I feel better.